Tuesday April 8, 2008 - Having trouble with Anger.
Wednesday April 9, 2008: I went through one day of a sore throat and headache.
Find info on Aspartame on Web.
Thursday April 10, 2008 - Throat better - Headache gone.
Friday April 11, 2008: 2:00am I am feeling happier and significantly less numbness and tingling in my legs.
More aches [my nerves seem to work better I think.], and significantly better vision.
I will note, I am not consuming extra sugar, just drinking water, decaf coffee, or decaf green tea, etc. instead of diet pop.
I will also note that it does not explain all my health problems - I was diagnosed with schizophrenia before 1981, when aspartame
was approved. but I actually functioned better before giving up beer [I'm not saying beer helped me either], and started drinking
diet pop.
10:00am Pleasant breakfast at the Lodge.
3:00pm Check ingredients and find cereal I was about to eat contains aspartame - I had some last night.
4:30pm, after frustrations trying to do something on computer, feel numb-tingling in legs below knees while standing.
5:30pm solved computer problem - then ate vegetables.
6:30pm feeling better again.
rest in evening
10:30pm - too tired - take meds with cheese - go to bed.
11;00pm take Vick's brand DayQuil cold/flu medicine.
Saturday April 12, 2008: 4:00am up - glucose 120 - wgt 201.5.[I have decided it is impractical to report everything here.
I record what I eat in DietPower anyway - suffice it to say I am avoiding aspartame and sugar alcohols.]
I will just record unusual things - e.g. it is unusual for me to go to bed before 1:00am, but not unusual to sleep only 5 hours.
8:00am have cold symptoms - runny nose, cough, and congestion.
10:00am Fine tuning setup on my and mom's laptops.
11:00 Am feeling happier than usual in spite of cold. - Wish this program had spell checker however!
12:00pm Take Vick's DayQuil
11:00pm go to bed
Mostly work on computer and reading.
Sunday April 13, 2008: 7:00am get up - mostly over cold.
11:00am attend church - sleepy [unusual] on way.
Feeling hungrier and colder than usual - also noticing visual details more.
3:30pm Walk 1 mile
4:30pm Perception of time has changed. Everything seems to happen faster and be
less boring.
Work on laptops [backup failed] - chkdsk & norton till 3:00am
Monday April 14, 2008 - Up at 8:00am.
8:15 am Get backups started on both laptops.
12:00pm walk 1 mile.
2:00 pm Physical therapy on neck.
3:00 pm Backups completed successfully.
3;30 pm Feel better [ from therapy?]
So far main improvements which I might attribute to stopping aspartame are greatly improved perception, feeling of happiness and
well-being. Not much difference in legs or feet.
Talk philosophy with a friend(situation semantics etc.)
Doze some in evening.
Tuesday, April 15. Sleep 1:30am-5:30AM
Doze some.
Ongoing Trend - My glucose has been lower lately.[117 today after "fasting" only 4 hours.]
Read about Jon Grate [A Mentally ill acquaintance in NAMI] in RI Argus - April 14, 2008 Page A5.
Read John Wheeler obit. in NY Times
9:30am Very sleepy in spite of 1 cup caffeinated coffee.
8:45pm Looking for a possible bug in my web statistics program [I thought there should be more "accesses" of ".bmp" or ".BMP" files] -
but I found nothing wrong. The colors in the screen suddenly stuck me as they never had before.
I checked and see the same thing on the TV. And also, but less so, just around the room.
11:00pm - Tired - go to bed - sleep.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008: 1:00am - wake from silly nightmare.
3:30pm-11:30am Sleep [Try to sleep as long as I can].
11:30am Glucose 111 after 8 hours fasting.
12:30am Walk 1 mile.
rest today.
Thursday, April 17, 2008: 1:00am go to bed.
7:00am Get Up : weight 200.5, glucose 106.
9:30am Walk 1 mile.
10:00am Take quick look at 'situation semantics' links I added at
My Philosophy Page
3:00pm Walk 1 mile again.
Friday, April 18, 2008
1:00am-3:00am Unable to sleep.
3:00am-5:00am Work on setup of software on Mom's laptop.
5:00am-10:30am Sleep.
11:00am Feeling Relaxed and Happy.
12:00pm Walk 1 mile. Legs feel better than usual.
Spend afternoon worrying on Icon for cygwin.
5:00pm Have feeling of calmness and well-being[very unusual].
Saturday, April 19, 2008.
1:00am-7:00am Sleep.
7:00am Glucose 119, weight 202.
1:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Work on web and watch NBA.
7:00pm Feel more numbness and tingling in legs than usual.
Watch NBA.
9:00pm Have feeling of calmness and well-being[very unusual] - stronger than yesterday!.
Watch NBA & read.
11:45pm Feeling exceptionally good.
Sunday, April 20, 2008.
2:00am Still feeling exceptionally well.
Notice I have a little acne.
3:00am-6:30am sleep.
6:30am Glucose 118, weight 201.5 (fasted just 3.5 hrs).
10:00am Watch replay of Danica Winning Indy Car Race [and read - Feeling exceptionally well - but some voices].
12:00pm Walk 1 mile.
1:00pm Watch Tennis and read[still feeling well].
2:00pm Watch NBA - trouble staying awake[feel tired].
6:00pm Continue watching NBA & reading - right arm tingling yet - paranoid thoughts about my medical problems.
7:30PM Watch Celtics and work on Critique of this approach to modal logic.
Monday, April 21, 2008.
1:30am-7:30am sleep - fast 6 hours - glucose 108, weight 202.5.
9:00am-11:00am Sleep.
Reading
12:30pm Walk 1 mile.
Reading
2:15pm Notice some of the green tea mom got, including what I've been drinking the last couple days, is not decaffeinated.
3:30pm Walk 1 mile again.
Listen to ACM course.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
1:30am-6:30am Sleep.
6:30am Fast 5 hours - glucose 139, weight 201.
1:40pm Physical therapy for neck[last time - have improved]
2:30pm Walk 1 mile.
4:15pm This happens to me sometimes: [fairly often]
I am relaxing - my mind is as it were working on some problem - I come to realize the problem is all imaginary.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Sleep 2:00am-10:00am.
Fast 9.5 hours - Glucose 111 - Weight 201.5.
12:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Read.
3:30pm Walk 1 mile again.
Read & watch NBA
Eat cake containing sugar alcohols without realizing it - but no aspartame.
Reading & watching NBA.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
3:00am-9:00am Sleep.
9:30am Fast 6.5 hours - Glucose 108 - weight 201.
Read and Music.
4:00pm Exercise Bike 1.1 miles.(raining all day)
Read and Music.
Watch NBA
8:30pm Legs hurting - toes hurt - back itches - stomach upset - miserable.
9:00pm-10:00pm Rest in bed.
Watch NBA and listen Music
Hearing Voices more than usual the last couple days.
[had also eaten cake with sugar alcohols today before voices]
Friday, April 25, 2008.
Sleep 3:00am-8:00am. Weight 203 - didn't get glucose.
12:00pm Walk 1 mile.
1:00pm-5:30pm Sleep [on basement floor - have company] - feel much better afterward [as over fever].
7:00pm-12:00am Reading, watch NBA, listen music - feeling better than usual - but not much different than usual.
Saturday, April 26, 2008.
3:00am-7:00am Sleep[On basement floor].
Felt better than usual most of night.
But noticed color on TV looked different than usual from 11:00am on.
[Deeper saturation I think it would be called - especially blues.]
Read and listen to music.
2:00pm-5:45pm Sleep[on basement floor].
6:00pm Toes not numb - but painful.
7:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Watch NBA, read, and listen to music. Noticing details more - such as dust on book shelves.
[which I cleaned just a few months ago when cataloging my books].
Sunday, April 27, 2008.
1:30am-5:30am Sleep[on basement floor].
Work all day on Web Pages
4;30pm: Walk 1 mile.
Work on web pages and read. .
Monday, April 28, 2008.
1:30am-7:00am Sleep[in bed]. Weight 201.5 - fast 5.5 hours - Glucose 116.
Work on Web Pages.
2:00pm Walk 1 mile.
5:00pm-9:00pm Sleep - feel better afterword.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008.
Misc
1:00am-2:00am Try to sleep cannot.
Sleep 2:00am-4:00am Nightmare
4:30am Realized forgot Lorazepam - take it.
5:00am-11:30am Sleep.
11:00am Fast 11 hours - Glucose 112 - Weight 202.5.
1:00pm Walk 1 mile. Legs feel "livelier" than usual.
2:00pm-5:00pm Sleep.
Misc.
6:00pm-8:00pm Sleep.
Watch NBA & Read.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008. Weight 201.5
5:00am-7:00am Sleep.
8:00am-12:00pm Sleep.
1:00pm Walk 1 Mile.
Order Maple 11 & Do Misc.
6:00pm-10:15pm Sleep.
Watch End Celtics.
Talk to a friend.
Thursday, May 1, 2008.
5:00am-7:30am Sleep.
Maple 11 Comes & Install. Try it just a little.
1:00pm Haircut - walk 1 mile.
After haircut Legs bothering me - Feel Exhausted.
2:00pm-9:00pm Sleep.
9:00pm Weight 205.
Feel better - legs better - toes less numb than usual.
Watch NBA.
Do Monthly backups.
Friday, May 2,2008.
Study Maple 11.
NOTE: My vision continues to be improved - I notice many things I hadn't noticed before. Also my hearing seems improved.
5:30am-8:00am Sleep.
Thunderstorms - computer off till 11:00am.
Study Maple - fantastic!
1:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Study Maple Online courses.
3:30pm severe headache.
5:00pm-8:00pm Sleep.
8:00pm-9:30pm Hard time trying to stay awake for Celtics game - they lose - series tied 3-3.
Watch NBA & listen music, read, etc.
Saturday, May 3, 2008.
Misc.
3:00am-7:30am Sleep.
7:30am Fast 5 hours - Glucose 114 - Weight 203.5.
Read and listen to music.
1:00pm Walk 1 mile.
3:00pm-8:00pm Feel exhausted - Sleep.
Watch NBA, Listen to music, and Study Maple.
Sunday, May 4, 2008.
2:00am-7:00am Sleep.
7:00am Fast 5 hours - Glucose 119 - Weight 204.5.
9:00am Walk 1 mile.
Read and Study Maple.
12:00pm-2:30pm Watch Celtics win Game 7 vs Atlanta.
2:30pm Walk 1 mile.
Watch NBA and Read [fix gravity program for my Maple tensors - just have to adjust paths] etc.
5:00pm-11:30pm Sleep.
Monday, May 5, 2008
12:00am-4:30am Sleep.
4:30am - Fast 12 hours - glucose 124 - weight 204.5.
Reading and studying Maple.
11:00am Notice alertness [and improved vision] after drinking decaffeinated green tea. [often drink decaffeinated coffee]
1:00pm Walk 1 mile - Eat Chinese - fried rice.
2:30pm-5:00pm Sleep.
Watch NBA.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008.
1:00am-7:00am Sleep.
7:00am Fasted 8 hours - glucose 129 - weight 203.5.
Misc.
11:00am Walk 1 mile.
12:30pm See my psychologist.
1:00pm Stop at Best Buy - Get Moody Blues and Celine Dion DVDs.
1:30pm Stop at Walden Books - Get Latin - English / English - Latin Dictionary [Mostly because of Wm James].
3:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Watching DVD's. Then Watching Celtics on TV and Election results on Laptop.
Noticing flavor of food while eating supper [much more noticeable than usual].
Also vision keeps seeming to improve [notice more and more detail].
Wednesday, May 7, 2008.
1:00am-7:00am Sleep.
7:00am Fast 6 hours - Glucose 140, Weight 204.
10:45 See my psychiatrist.
LAB work for psychiatrist (depakote)
12:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Misc. Email Etc.
Write Ideas on Ethics.
Watch NBA
Thursday, May 8, 2008.
12:00am-5:00am Sleep.
5:00am - Fast 5 hours - Glucose 139 - Weight 203.5.
5:00am-7:30am Doze.
Misc. Work on "On Ethics".
1:30pm-4:00pm Nap
Misc + NBA.
9:00pm Become Very Tired.
Friday, May 9, 2008.
9:00pm-4:00am Sleep.
4:00am - fasted 7 hours - glucose 139 - weight 202.
Misc
11:00am Walk 1 Mile.
Feeling Depressed. Nothing feels worth doing.
4:30pm-8:30pm Get very Tired - Sleep.
TV
Saturday, May 10, 2008
12:30am-4:30am Sleep.
4:30am Fast 5 hrs - glucose 142 - weight 203.5.
Feeling depressed today.
Recliner getting worse - will need to replace soon.
Neck and arm worse than usual this morning.
Haven't been exercising as much - to avoid bothering others.
9:00am Walked 1 mile.
Going to get back to exercising and using computer at desk - for better posture.
I think my depression might be the result of getting less reading done the last few days - due to distractions.
Read, etc - feel better - reading seems to help.
3:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Read
NBA
8:00 Tired - go to bed
Sunday, May 11, 2008 - Mothers Day
8:00pm-1:30am Sleep
Misc.
4:00am-7:30am Sleep.
Mostly doze.
Mostly Read.
2:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Misc - NBA - exhausted.
3:30pm-6:00pm Sleep.
Watch NBA.
Monday, May 12, 2008,
12:00am-7:00am Sleep,
7:00am Fast 8 hours - Glucose 149 - weight 204.
Nap
Study Maple
2:30pm-3:30pm Sleep
4:00pm Walk 1 mile
Read
7:00pm Watch Celtics.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008.
11:00pm-2:30am Sleep.
2:30am Weight 203.5
Misc.
3:30am-11:30am Sleep.
Fast 9 hours - Glucose 117 - Weight 203.5
Organize room.
Misc.
Read and watch NBA
Misc.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep.
8:00am Fast 8 hours - Glucose 132 - Weight 202.5
Clean Room.
3:00pm Walk 1 mile.
5:30pm Walk 1 mile.
Watch NBA - Celtics win.
9:00pm Start Fast for lab work tomorrow for Dr Syfert.
Thursday. May 15, 2008.
11:00pm-6:30am Sleep
LAB Work for Family Dr. (diabetes) NOTICE COLORS in TV MORE - ALMOST FLORESCENT
Change ink in new printer 1st time - some trouble but finally figure it out.
Walk 1 mile.
New BRS Quarterly Arrives - Looks Good.
4:30pm Had forgot NOON meds - took them NOW.
Some acne today.
5:30pm Help serve community meal.
7:00pm Practice basketball [just free throws] 15 min.[make one - the last one!]
Watch NBA
Friday, May 16, 2008.
11:00pm-8:00am Sleep.
8:00am Fast 8 Hours - Glucose 140 - Weight 202.
Install Maple 12 [Free Update since purchased Maple 11 after April 1, 2008].
10:00am Colors [especially TV] seeming very bright.
Install Maple 12.
Read, try my gravity program in Maple 12 - seems OK.
1:30pm Meet with Case Worker.
Misc.
5:30pm Walk Walgreens.
Watch NBA - Celtics lose.
Saturday, May 17, 2008.
3:00am-7:30am
7:30am Feel Sick. Feet Hurt. Bad Headache. Feel I am being poisoned.
8:30am-1:30pm Sleep.
1:30pm Feel better - sore muscles from basketball?
3:00pm Walk 1 mile - senses much more alert than usual - smells, sounds, sight.
Read.
Get Icon working under Cygwin on Laptop.
Work on Sode in Icon for generating Maple 12 code.
Sunday, May 18, 2008.
3:00am-8:30am Sleep.
8:30am Fast 9 hours - Weight 202.5 - Glucose 111. (new batteries in meter)
Work on MapleSode.icn
12:30pm Walk 1 mile.
Vision seems very clear today. Feet feel less numb - but a little pain.
Work on MapleSode.icn.
2:30pm Watch Celtics win game 7 vs Cleveland.
Work on MapleSode.icn.
6:00pm Become exhausted.
8:00pm-9:30pm Sleep.
Read, etc.
TV colors seem more "normal" - bright & distinct but not florescent.
See more details in TV & in general.
Toes feel less numb than usual.
Monday, May 19, 2008.
3:00am-8:00am Sleep.
8:00am Fast 5 hours - Weight 202 - Glucose 142.
Had a little headache and heartburn.
Otherwise better than usual.
Last night felt "band" around my head - like I felt 1971-1973 or so.
Work mostly on MapleSode - some misc.
3:30pm Walk 1 mile.
5:30pm Stuck on bug in MapleSode.icn - take break.
7:00pm Start watching NBA game.
8:00pm-9:00pm Feel tired - sleep mostly.
9:00pm-11;00pm Watch NBA - feel sick - legs and feet and stomach.
Feeling I am paranoid - feel Doctors are making me sick on purpose.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008.
11:00pm-6:00am Sleep.
6:00am Fasted 7 hours - Weight 203 - Glucose 121.
8:00am Feeling better than usual - Toes just a little numb - otherwise legs & feet & chest OK.
Not feeling paranoid.
Misc.
10:00am Walk 1 mile.
Misc.
Think about SODE for Maple
in Ruby.
5:00pm Walk 1 mile.
6:00pm Watch Primary Results.
7:30pm Watch Celtics
8:00pm-9:00pm Tired - rest.
9:00pm-10:00pm Watch Celtics.
10:00pm Watch Primary Results.
Having sensation [like cramping] in lower lip. [Reminds me of when I was given cortisone for skin in 1972.]
Thursday, May 22, 2008.
2:00am-9:00am Sleep.
9:00am Weight 203.
Misc.
11:30am-12:30pm Rest.
1:30 Apt with Family Dr.
Cholesterol 141
Triglycerides 125
HDL 35 [Low]
LDL 81
Creatiinine 1.4 [Slightly high]
Potassium 3.4 [Low]
Glucose 128 [High]
A1C 7.1 [Slightly High]
Stop and browse at Barnes & Noble on way home. RESOLVED - NO MORE ICE CREAM
Misc.
3:00pm Walk 1 Mile.
Watch Tennis.
Watch NBA - Celtics Lose [At Home]
Misc.
Friday, May 23, 2008.
Rainy Day.
4:00am-8:00am Sleep.
8:00am Weight 201.5.
Read, Rest, Sleep.
Walk 1 mile.
Read.
8:00pm NBA
Work on moving .WMA files from system now Linux to .tgz to DVD to Laptop for Yahoo Music.
[where they came from before Dell became Linux].
License Troubles on .WMA Files.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
2:00am-7:30am Sleep.
7:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 203.5 - Glucose 141
Try to save problems with .WMA files - contact Yahoo.
11:00am-2:00pm Sleep.
More computer troubles - cannot scan documents.
Even more computer trouble - cannot go to restore points.
Decide to redo computer from recovery DVD's
3:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Make plan - start redo [details omitted here]
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Work on executing plan
7:00am-11:00am Sleep
Work on executing plan
5:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Work on executing plan
Monday, May 26, 2008
12:00am-10;00am Sleep
10:00am Fast 11 hours - Glucose 125 - Weight 202.5
Work On Laptop (plan)
3:00pm Walk 1 mile
Work on Laptop
7:30 Celtics Game 4 vs Detroit
8:00pm Tired - go to bed
9:00pm Watch more Celtics
9:30pm Notice that I am noticingcolors and detail in TV much more than usual!
After Celtics game [they lose], experiment with scanning and PDF creation with software that came with HP printer.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
It took quite a bit of experimenting, but seem to finally get decent PDF results.
6:30am-10:30am Sleep.
10:30am Weight 199.5
12:30pm See my Psychologist
Work on trying to recover codesnippets for openwebsuite - cannot.
5:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Misc.
8:00pm Watch NBA
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Misc
3:00am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Fast 7 hours - Glucose 158 - Weight 202.5
Misc.
8:00 watch celtics win game 5
Misc.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:45am Weight 201.5
Reading, email, watch tennis, etc.
5:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Rest
8:00pm NBA
9:00pm Tired - Rest.
10:00pm NBA
Misc
Friday, May 30, 2008
2:00am-8:30am Sleep
Get around and take dad for lab work.
Watch Tennis [French Open]
Put Source for Maple Gravity Code on Web
3:00pm Walk 1 mile.
Misc.
7:00pm Restore gravity .jpg's [documentation] I accidentally copied as asci.
7:20pm Prepared for Celtics game.
Feeling exceptionally good - just had decaf green tea, green beans and corn - connection?? - seems it has happened before!!!
7:30pm-10:30pm Celtics win game 6 - going to Finals
Read, etc.
12:30am-7:00am Sleep.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
7:00am Fast 6.5 hours - Glucose 121 - Weight 201
Work on Gravity html.
11:00am Walk 1 mile
Watch Tennis - TV
2:30pm-4:30pm Sleep
Watch Tennis - Listen to Music
Read - listen to music
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Sleep 1:00am-9:30am
9:30am Fact 9 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 116
11:00am Attend Unitarian Church
2:00pm Attend NAMI Meeting
Rest
5:00pm Walk 1 mile
Watch tennis and read
Monday, June 2, 2008
3:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am Fast 7 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 124
11:00am Walk 1 mile
1:00pm-3:00pm Sleep
Scan & Read
6:00pm-9:00pm Sleep
Still feel exhausted
Watch Tennis and Read
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
$:00am CANNOT GO TO SLEEP
Feeling paranoid - suspect doctors of harming Me
7:00am-12:00pm Sleep
12:00pm Fast 5 hrs - Weight 203 - Glucose 143
Work (play) at adding (Yahoo) from music unlimited to my music
2:30pm Walk 1 mile
Play more with Music
5:00 TV - politics & music & reading
8:00p After some green tea & popcorn have strong sense of well being and calmness
10:30 Reading
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
1:30am-5:00am Sleep
Forget to check weight, etc.
To see neurosurgeon today about my neck
It has been steadily improving
Now no pain and only tingles occasionally [especially when doing exercises.]
Finish Obama Dreams from My Father
12:00pm Walk 1 mile
1:35pm See Neurosurgeon about neck - done!
Pizza at the Lodge
4:00pm-8:30pm Sleep
Read - Watch Tennis
Thursday, June 5, 2008 NO SLEEP
Do Backup
Order OCR upgrade
Reading
Watch Tennis
Walk 1 Mile
Misc
11:30am-4:30pm Sleep
4:30pm-8:00pm Mostly doze
8:00pm-11:00pm Celtics vs Lakers game 1 - Celtics win
read, etc.
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END OF LOGGING
If I have noticed any difference, it is just that I tend to be a little happier, and
greater sense of well-being. Most of the time, my senses are also better [especially vision].
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RESTARTED LOGGING FROM MY DIARY ENTRIES FROM THE MISSING PERIOD
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6/5/2008
- order IRIS
backup my
data
backup
moms data
order
iris ocr - $83
read
watch
tennis
walk
walgreens
misc
11:30am-4:30pm
sleep
4:30pm-8:00pm
Mostly doze
8:00pm-11:00pm
Celtics vs Lakers Game 1 - Celtics win
6/6/2008
- Mom's Legacy
Email
Chad (chair of brs about my ideas)
music -
misc.
read
4:30am-7:00am
Sleep
Help Mom
with her computer- Legacy 7 install
Tennis
research
scanning
music
walk 0.5
miles - looks like it might rain
STOP
ASPARTAME LOG
walk
walgreens
3:00pm-11:00pm
sleep
6/7/2008
- emacs env
Work on
emacs environment
fix
openwebsuite codesnippets
read,
music
8:00am-10:30am
sleep thru womens french tennis final
music,
misc
get
groceries
2:30pm-9:00pm
sleep
read
6/8/2008
- Celtics vs Lakers Game 2
watch
"toxic garbage island"
read
6:30am-8:30am
sleep
mens
french tennis final
read,
etc.
12:30pm-6:30pm
sleep
work on
music - Yahoo
watch
celtics vs lakers game 2 - celtics win
read,
etc.
6/9/2008
- BCBS Ins
read,
musicetc
8:30am-12:30pm
sleep
weight
202
1:30pm
Donate $50 Obama
4:00pm
walk walgreens
study
BCBS INS MEDICARE SUP
8:00pm-11:30m
Sleep
6/10/2008
- Celtics vs Lakers Game 3
work on
my music - yahoo
read,
misc
6:30am-8:00am
sleep
work on
my music - yahoo
walk
walgreens
readiris
comes (ocr sw)
get
working
4:00pm-8:00pm
sleep
celtics
vs lakers - lakers win
read
(kant)
6/11/2008
- practice basketball
1:00am-5:00am
sleep
misc
8:30am
practice basketball 10 min - lincoln park
scanning,etc.
2:00pm-7:00pm
sleep
scanning,
etc.
6/12/2008
- Celtics vs Lakers Game 4
1;00am-6:00am
sleep
rescan
RSN 4-6
10:00am
walk walgreens - get presc
rest
talk
robbie
talk tom
m
sore
muscles (basketball yesterday??)
4:00pm
walk walgreens
read
thunderstorms
6:00pm? 2
ibuprofen - sore muscles esp legs
watch
celtics
basement
has water
6/13/2008
- Ray (csp)
12:30am-6:30am
sleep
8:00am 2
ibuprofen
misc
1:00pm
meet w ray (csp)
3:00pm
walk walgreens
6/14/2008
- walk
sleep
(,mostly) 12:00am-9:00am
misc
1:00am
ibuprofen (legs)
12:00pm
ibuprofen (legs)
12:30pm
walk walgreens
tv, music
& help mom move things in basement due to water
4:00pm
walk walgreens
read
6:00pm-10:00pm
sleep
misc
6/15/2008
- laptop trouble
misc
1:45am
ibuprofen
trouble
with software on laptop
-- icons
moved
-- cannot
do liveupdate- norton
-- cannot
do system restore
find must
turnoff system protection in norton to do restore
restore
works - to 6/8/8 - 12:08am - before iris update
piddle
with norton - find repair utility that works
walk
walgreens
reinstall
readiris
misc
attend
NAMI support group
misc -
music
8:00pm-12:00am
too tired to watch celiics - sleep
6/16/2008
- Celtics vs Lakers Game 5 (tape)
12:30am
watch celtics tape
4:00am Celtics lose
Last couple of days, when taking baths, Water has seemed more 'wet' than I remember
6:00am-9;00am Work on MapleSode
11:30am walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode
2:15pm-7:15pm Sleep
Weekly Backups
Misc
Vision very clear
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
12:00am-4:30am sleep
snack
5:00am-9:00am sleep
10:30am walk 1 mile
11:00am-1:00pm work on MapleSode
2:00 see psychologist
Work on MapleSode
Try to read in Kant - cannot get interested
very tired - rest - cannot sleep
7:30pm Celtics vs Lakers
Suspect rash on arm is eczema - had it as child thru college - it was treated with cortisone
I want to avoid cortisone as I suspect it as at least partial cause of mental problems
Read about eczema on Mayo Clinic Web site
Will cut back on soaking in bathtub - which I had been doing more lately for sore muscles in legs Celtics win 17th Championship
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
3:00am-10:30am sleep
10:30am Weight 202 - glucose 143
misc
12:00pm walk 1 mile
help mom in basement
1:30pm 2 ibuprofen
watching old tapes
reading
Eczema better - just took shower today
feeling much better than usual
Thursday, June 19, 2008
10:00pm-5:30am sleep
5:30am weight 203.5 - glucose 142
cereal and milk
6:00am-11:30am sleep
6:00am weight 203 - glucose 102
misc
2:00pm walk 1 mile
after walk feeling worse than usual - mostly physical - but also mental
rest
6:00pm 2 ibuprofen
read
work on yahoo music
Friday, June 20, 2008
3:00am-10:00am sleep
8:30am weight 202.5 - glucose 135
12:00pm walk 1 mile
1:00pm-3:00pm work on MapleSode - stuck on problem
4:30pm solve problem
5:30pm-8:30pm sleep
misc
8:30pm 2 ibuprofen
work on philosophy blog post
Saturday, June 21, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am weight 202.5 glucose 122
misc
9:00am-11:30am sleep
12:00pm walk 1 mile
misc
feel depressed - see no use in living
2 ibuprofen
5:30pm-7:30pm sleep
eczema much better
read
Sunday, June 22, 2008
4:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am weight 202.5
misc
8:00am-12:00pm sleep
misc
2:00pm-3:30pm NAMI Connections
5:00pm Walk 1 mile
rest
read
Realize I am in almost constant state of debating with voices - mostly about health and doctors.
Monday, June 23, 2008
5:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 201 - glucose 129
read and watch Wimbledon
12:00pm walk 1 mile
1:00pm-4;30pm paperwork
6;00pm-7:30pm sleep
watch Wimbledon and read
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Read
Sleep 4:00am-8:30am
8:30am Fast 8 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 139
Voices worse than usual [ they were last night also]
Legs a little better [tried stretching and massaging them myself]
1:00pm Walk 1 mile
Wimbledon
3:00pm Walk 1 mile again
read and work on yahoo music
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
12:00am-10:30am Sleep [finally!!!]
10:30am - fast 10.5 hours - Glucose 126 - Weight 202
Wimbledon
1:00pm Walk 1 mile
2:00pm-3:30pm paperwork
4:30pm-8:30pm Work on MapleSode
Wimbledon
Work on Yahoo music - playlists
read
Thursday, June 26, 2008
3:00am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 4.5 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 129
misc
11:30am-2:00pm Work on MapleSode
3:30pm Walk 1 mile
shopping
tired - rest
wnba - 3OT
read
Friday, June 27, 2008
12:45am NOTES:
Vision very clear and colors very bright
Sense of Smell stronger than usual
At times - especially when relaxed - have strong feeling of pleasure throughout body
Still have numbness and tingling - especially in toes
Some intermittent pain - especially in feet and legs
Voices much of the time - mostly about doctors and my health
2:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 7 hours - Weight 202.5 - Glucose 123
10:30am-1:30pm Work on MapleSocde
2:00pm Walk 1 mile
3:00pm-5:30pm Work on MapleSode
exhausted rest
8:00pm-11:30pm Work on MapleSode
TV very BRIGHT
Saturday, June 28, 2008
12:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 123
misc
9:30am-11:00am Work on MapleSode
read Kant
12:30pm Walk 1 mile
read Kant
4:00pm-5:00pm rest
misc
Reading
Sunday, June 29, 2008
12:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am - Fast 7 hours - Weight 202 - Glucose 131
rest and relax
minor fix to my www stats
12:30pm walk 1 mile ghtRest [exhausted] till 7:30pm [Sleep some]
Read
Monday, June 30, 2008
12:00am-6:00am Sleep
6:00am Weight 202
relax - music
misc paperwork
email
walk 1 mile
work sorting old VHS tapes - get them reorganized
7:00pm sore - 2 ibuprofen
listen stones tape
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
11:00pm-7:30am Sleep
7:30am - Fast 8.5 hours - Weight 202.5 - Glucose 111
Wimbledon and organizing my room
see psychologist
Wimbledon
read
4:00pm 2 ibuprofen
Sore Muscles from sorting VHS Tapes
5:00pm walk 1 mile
rest and read
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
11:00pm-5:00am Sleep
Fast 5 hours - Weight 202.5 - Glucose 160
doze
8:00am 2 ibuprofen
Sore Muscles from Sorting VHS Tapes
Scan RSN's 7 & 8
Email
Walk 1 mile
Work on xfer of pdf's
6:00pm very tired - rest
setup ftp account
setup pdf search
Thursday, July 3, 2008
4:00am-8:30am Sleep
8:30am Weight 201.5
Work on ftp access
10:00am-2;00pm sleep
work on ftp access
walk 1 mile - feel a little more spring in my step than usual
ftp OK
Finish on RSN 1-8
Read
Friday, July 4, 2008
12;00am-6:00am Sleep
weight 201.5
misc
RSN Web live
read
walk 1 mile
Scan RSN 9 and 10
misc
6:00pm-7:30pm Sleep
programming
read
Saturday, July 5, 2008
3:00am-7:30am Sleep
Weight 202
Index RSN 9-10
Wimbledon
Scan RSN 11-12
Relax
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Index RSN 11-12
5:30pm-8:30pm REST - Very Tired
Watch Video on Brain Networking - link at Psychology Links
Read
Sunday, July 6, 2008
3:00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Weight 200.5
Last night reading about bipolar disorder [see my reading]
I read anxiety can cause numbness and tingling. I don't think I had been told
that. I knew I wasn't making it up. My psychiatrist mostly hinted it was my diabetes and my family doctor [who took
care of the diabetes] denied this while suggesting it might be my psychiatric meds [ which my psychiatrist, it seemed,
wouldn't comment on.] I do know that, at times, lately, when I just relaxed, a wonderful healthy feeling would come over me.
Unfortunately, it seems, I am unable to stay, so relaxed, while doing anything - more than listening to music.
Misc
Attend qcuu church
Wimbledon
12:20pm-1:30pm Tired - sleep
Attend NAMI group
Watch Wimbledon[tape(ran out)]
Walk 1 mile
Tired - rest
8:30pm-1:00am Sleep
Monday, July 7, 2008
Misc
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Fast 7 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 92
misc
Trying to get backup to work
Walk - lunch at Oriental Express
Scan RSN 13
Get backup to work
Watch Ringo on Larry King
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
12:30am-3:00am Sleep
3:00am Fast 3 hours Weight 201.5 Glucose 130
3:15am-5:15am Sleep
5:15am Fast 5.25 Hours Glucose 120
5:30am-8:00am Sleep
misc
10:00am Walk 1 mile
Work on scanning health records into pdf files - see Hospital records
Relax
Walk 1 mile
Read and relax
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
11:00pm-1:00am try to sleep
1:00am-6:30am sleep
Scan rsn 14-16
11:45am [fasted 12 hours - except unsweetened coffee and tea] Glucose 137
Rest
Walk 1 mile
Rest
3:00pm 2 ibuprofen
Rest and sleep
Read
Thursday, July 10, 2008
1:30am-6:30am Sleep
6:S30am Weight 199.5
misc
9:00am - fast 9 hours - glucose 121
lots of sore muscles
mostly rest - feel lousy
attend UU Enneagram class
relax
sign up for Obama Davenport Office opening Saturday
Friday, July 10, 2008
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Weight 200
Feeling much better today
read
1:00pm walk 1 mile with case worker
4:00pm get very scared - paranoid and anxious
lorazepam
4:30pm-7:30pm sleep
Work on FTP for RSN
11:00pm-1:00am Sleep
Saturday, July 12, 2008
1:00am-2:30am FTP for RSN
2:30am-6:30am Sleep
Music
10:00am Obama Campaign Meeting
Music
2:00pm Walk walgreens
3:00pm-4:30pm Sleep
Wake feeling very refreshed [unparanoid]
I've noticed, lately, feeling very good just after sleeping
Also dreaming a lot
7:00pm very tired
try to rest
(M) feel surge of energy
Sunday, July 13, 2008
11:30pm-3:00am sleep
feel rested
work on computer
attend qcuu
work on computer
music - rest- tired
read just a little
Monday, July 14, 2008
10:30pm-3:00am Sleep on basement floor - Wiklunds here
Wake with Sore Throat - slept too flat
3 baby aspirin
4:00am-6:00am sleep
relax
programming
walk 1 mile
programming
walk 1 mile again
12:00pm-7:00pm sleep
7:00pm weight 200.5 - glucose 129
8:00pm-11:00pm sleep
music and read
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Misc
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am - Fast 7 hours? - Weight 201 - Glucose 113
Reading Kant - seems easier reading today than usual
walk 1 mile
music
practice basketball - lose game of HORSE
music
7:30pm-11:00pm sleep and rest
Very Tired
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Watch end of MLB all star game
2:00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 98
Feeling Wonderful today -- very calm.
Walk 1 mile - they were doing some tests at Walgreens
Blood Pressure 143/92 - hadn't had today's medicine yet
BMI 27.91 - Body composition Fat 29.2 - Muscle 31.3
Went and practiced free throws about 10 minutes
2:30pm-6:30pm sleep[on basement floor]
supper with family - wiklunds are here
7:00pm-9:30pm sleep[on basement floor]
Dream Obama visits our house, but I am sleeping and mom doesn't wake me
Thursday, July 17, 2008
2:00am-4:30am Sleep
Cannot lay down longer
5:00am-6:00am rest
5:3am 2 ibuprofen
relax - music
study enneagram
8:00am practice free throws 10 minutes
work on RSN #17 (scanning)
2:30pm-6:00pm Sleep
6:30pm-9:00pm Enneagram Class at UU (incl travel)
misc
Friday, July 18, 2008
10:30pm-4:30am Sleep
4:30am - Fast 6 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 123
Read
8:00am practice free throws
Work on MapleSode
10:00am Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode - Get debugging Process down
2:00pm-5:30pm Sleep
misc
Watch Al Gore video on Green Energy add link on my politics page
misc
Saturday, July 19, 2008
10:30pm-2:30pm Sleep[prior to meds - VERY UNUSUAL]
Misc
3:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am - Fast 5 hours - Weight 202 - Glucose 99
Rainy outside
Study Chinese
Walk 1 mile
Misc
Migrate to Rhapsody [From Yahoo Music]
2:00pm-9:30pm Sleep
Work on Rhapsody
Read
Sunday, July 20, 2008
3:00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Fast 4 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 131
Work on Rhapsody
Listen to John Lennon Dec 8, 1980 interview[BR mentioned][Rhapsody]
Walk 1 mile
scan RSN 18-20
6:30pm-10:30pm Sleep
Misc
Read
Monday, July 21, 2008
3:00am-6:00am Sleep
Severe Thunderstorm - 90 mph winds - 130,000 without POWER
6:00am NO POWER
doze some
read - Finish Weidlich book
music
6:00pm-1:00am Sleep
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
STILL NO POWER
1:00am catch up on computer - battery
2:00am-6:00am Sleep
Read Kant
Walk 1 mile
misc
Read more Kant
6:00pm-12:30am Sleep
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
STILL NO POWER
Rest most of night - doze a little
Read some
Find how to open garage door without power
Use internet at Rock Island Public Library [wireless on my laptop]
Catch up on email etc
Rest
Walk 1 mile
6:30pm-8:15pm Sleep
8:15pm POWER ON
Misc catch up on computer
Thursday, July 24, 2008
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 5 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 119
Misc
Study enneagram
Clean up www/health directory - get rid of .BMPs etc.
Paperwork
Misc
Scan Chang's ATS Draft to PDFs
Walk 1 mile
Paperwork
Attend enneagram class - qcuu
Misc
9:30pm-1:00am Sleep
Friday, July 25, 2008
4;00am-5:30am Cannot sleep
5:30am Breakfast
6:00am-9:45am Sleep
Work on RSN pdf's
Walk 1 mile
Misc
Practice Free Throws - 10 minutes - make 6 in a row at one point
Misc
Walk 1 mile again
Music
Work on my philosophy
Music
Saturday, July 26, 2008
1:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 7 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 122
7:45am-9:30am doze
Music
Scan RSN 21-22
Practice free throws - 10 minutes - most is 3 in a row
Read - notice that I am more easily distracted by TV [music] than I am used to - had to turn sound down
Usually I am accustomed to music helping me
Watch Tennis
4:30pm-6:00pm Sleep [very tired]
Scan RSN 23-24
Read & listen to music - it seems the music only bothers me when trying to read Kant
Sunday, July 27, 2008
12:30am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Fast 7 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 136
Sore muscles - 2 ibuprofen
7:00am-10:00am Doze
Work on RSN pdfs
Attend NAMI meeting
Shopping
Finish what I was doing on RSN pdfs
Read
Misc
Housekeeping on Mom's laptop
Monday, July 28, 2008
Work on Mom's Laptop till 3:00am - Vista SP1 - virus scan & other updates
5:00am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Fast 10 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 123
Was married 20 years ago today - went to NIMH for research 10 years ago today
Also it was approximately 30 years ago when I moved into my tiny apartment in Linccoln, NE where I broke down
Work on RSN pdfs
Walk 1 mile
Music
5:00pm-6:30pm Sleep
Work on my philosophy
Music
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
11:45pm-5:45am Sleep
5:45pm Fast 6 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 129
Work on my philosophy
Read
Misc
Feel tired and sleepy - but cannot go to sleep
Get ready to walk - but it is raining
Music
Walk 1 mile - get haircut
Work on web stats program
Scan RSN 25 and 26
Study Java [ACM]
Read
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Backup mom's laptop
1:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 116
Misc
Doze till 9:00am
Work on web Stats
Watch tennis
Walk 1 mile
Work more on web stats - done for now I think
Notice rails calculators broken - server rails changed?
Misc email and investigate rails a little
Work on philosophy - Goedel
Questions on HOL and incompleteness.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
12:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 7 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 127
Misc
Work more on my philosophy
See my psychiatrist
Walk 1 mile
Email etc
Enneagram test - 3 way tie between 3, 5 and 6
Scan RSN 27 and 28
Stop on way to UU at Scott County Obama HQ and get Button
Attend Enneagram (last) class at QCUU
Stop at Gallery (bar) on way home - have about 4 fl oz regular cola
Probably over 10 years since I had been there
Friday, August 1, 2008
12:00am Internet out 2 hours
2:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 137
Work on philosophy
RSN Web work
Walk 1 mile
Work on philosophy
Relax - music
Read
Having read in William James - The Varieties of Religious Experience - page 181 - "If it is possible to get rid
of anger and worry, why is it necessary to have them at all? I felt the strength of the argument, and at once accepted
the reasoning. The baby had discovered that it could walk. It would scorn to creep any longer."
I decided to take this to heart. I had - once - decided to quit drinking - and never been tempted again. This could be
no harder!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Plan Article reading
2:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 5 hours - Weight 201
Misc
Weekly Backup
Read
Walk 1 mile
Rest and read
Clean Computer Room
Read
Scan RSN 29 and 30
Sunday, August 3, 2008
2:30am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am fast 8 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 131
Misc
Read
NAMI group
Very Sleepy
Watch Tennis
Cannot stand watching Football - Seems so unimportant and the announcers seem to think it is so important.
Listen to music while scanning RSN 31 and 32
Monday, August 4, 2008
1:30am-6:30am Sleep
Weight 201.5
8:00am-11:00am Housekeeping on Mom's laptop
Walk 1 mile
Rebuild index for RSN 1-32
Music etc
2:30pm-12:00am Mostly sleep
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
12:00am-5:00am Mostly Sleep
5:00am - fast 5 hours> - Weight 203 - Glucose 113
doze - relax - music - feel depressed
hungry
See my psychologist
Eat - Sleepy
Read - listen to music
Talk to a friend
Read - listen to music
Scan RSN 33 and 34
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Weight 202
Rest [music] till 8:00am
Stiff neck - 2 ibuprofen
Scan RSN 35,36
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode
Very Tired
2:30pm-4:00pm Sleep
Read
Study Chinese
Study Java
Build RSN indexes
Read
Rate Music [rhapsody]
Thursday, August 7, 2008
1:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00AM - fast 7 hours - Weight 202 - Glucose 123
Rate Music (Rhapsody)
Misc - Music - Etc.
Walk 1 Mile
Work on MapleSode.rb - make some progress - but finding it very difficult
Relax
Scan RSN 37, 38
Friday, August 8, 2008
4:00am-10:30am Sleep
10:30am Fast 7 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 137
Russia invaded Georgia
Relax
Read
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode and Watch Olympics
Saturday, August 9, 2008
12:00am-6:00am Sleep
Weight 200.5
Work on MapleSode.rb and Watch Olympics
2:00pm Have core functionality of MapleSode.rb working
Misc work on Mom's computer[housekeeping]
Walk 1 mile
2:00pm Get Core Functionality of MapleSode Working
Watch Olympics
4:00pm-8:00pm Sleep
Watch Olympics
Misc work on my laptop[housekeeping]
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Scan RSN 39, 40
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
Weight 201.5
Watch Olympics
Attend QCUU
Olympics
Music
Attend NAMI meeting
Olympics, Music, and Relax
5:30pm Walk 1 mile
Olympics
Work on RSN 37-40 [Moving etc ] & re-index - Sleep Some
Monday, August 11, 2008
7:00pm????(Sunday)-3:00am Sleep mostly[before Meds!!]
4:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 116
Olympics
12:00pm Walk 1 mile
Olympics
Feel mentally better after getting sleep [finally a decent amount of sleep].
Feels like the medicine [Zyprexa and Depakote] may finally be working right.
I have thoughts about something [medicine sabotaged] having been wrong with medicine before.
Or is stopping the aspartame the difference???
2:00pm Tired - Lay down but don't fall asleep
Olympics
4:00pm Too tired to read
5:00pm-6:00pm Sleep
Read
Scan RSN 41, 42 while watching Olympics
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
1:00am-6:00am Sleep
6:00am Fast 5 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 117
Supect reason for my improvement is elimination of aspartame
Ir would be too hard to sabotage meds - which have not been changed.
Still do not understand extreme sensations after root canal in July 2006
Which led to my hospitalization and subsequent health problems
Read
Misc chores
Walk 1 mile
Read
Wotrk on MapleSode
4:15pm-5:45pm Sleep
Read
Scan RSN 43, 44 and Watch Olympics
Olympics
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Olympics
2:30am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am - Fast 8 hours - Weight 201.5 - Glucose 128
Watch Olympics
Rhapsody keeps crashing
Walk 1 mile
Misc
Get VERY Sleepy after eating Tacos
Read
2:30pm-3:30pm Rest but not sleep
Olympics
6:00pm Start Fasting
Read
Olympics
Test MapleSode.rb, Read, and Watch Olympics
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Olympics
1:30am-5:00am Sleep
Still Fasting
Doze off
7:00am Blood work
Work on MapleSode.rb
-- Complicated ode test
-- Remove trace
-- Add percent done
-- Misc clean-up
Misc
MapleSode.rb
6;15pm-7;45pm Sleep
Peter Hylton's new book on Russell arrives
Misc
Read
Olympics
Friday, August 15, 2008
Olympics
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7;30am - Fast 5 Hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 129
Work on MapleSode - testing - try tolerances - doesn't work as easily as I had hoped - will postpone for now
1:30pm Walk 1 mile - eat out
Read
3:00pm-5:00pm Tired - Rest
5:00pm-8:15pm Sleep
Olympics
Read
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Olympics
12:15am After my rest yesterday evening, I am feeling clearer mentally than usual - kind of like a fever broke.
1:30am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 202 - Glucose 121
MapleSode
Olympics
Rating Music - Rhapsody
Walk 1 mile
Notice 'stiff neck' after walk
Music and Olympics
Rest a long time - but no sleep
Scan RSN 45, 46 while watching women's Olympic marathon
Olympics
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Olympics
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 5 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 114
Olympics - Doze till 10:00am
A little Olympics till 11:00am
11:00am Overstimulated - Switch to music
1:30pm-4:00pm NAMI group
Olympics
Read
Scan RSN 47, 48 while watching Olympics
Monday, August 18, 2008
Music etc
3:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 133
Read and watch Olympics
Scan RSN 49, 50 and watch Olympics
Walk 1 mile
Read and listen to music
NOTE:
My legs [and arms] seem still to be bothering me some.
My arms though are much better than they were.
I am still doing the exercises for my neck - though not as often.
My legs hurt - I think it's the muscles - from stiffness [tension] - probably caused by my medicine - which I cannot do
without.
I am still hearing voices most of the time - but they just cause me to expect events which never do happen - so I
am always realizing they are [after all] false - though they must have a sub-conscious effect.
Scam RSN 51, 52 while watching Olympics
Olympics
Tuesday, August 19, 2w008
Olympics
1:00am-6:30am Sleep
Fast 6 hours - Weight 201 - Glucose 114
Backup Mom's Laptop and Misc
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode[test real singularity]
Doze off
Am going to try stopping caffeine again [I think I restarted to stay awake]
Doze off - feel caffeine out of system - peaceful
Scan RSN 53, 54 while watching Olympics
Olympics
Walk 1 mile [again]
6:00pm-8:00pm Sleep
Olympics
Read
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Olympics
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am - Fast 6 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 130
Music
Olympics
Walk 1 mile
Scan RSN 55, 56 while watching olympics
5:00pm-7:00pm Sleep
Misc
Install Poly/ML under cygwin {had earlier version before re-doing laptop)
Didn't install Isabelle [need to learn ML better before I need it. [But got poly from Isabelle site]
Start in evening having a lot of Grandiose Ideas and then Paranoid Ideas
Unable to read tonight
Watch Olympics
Work on MapleSode.rb - Complex Singularity Test
Thursday, August 21, 2008
1:30am-7:30am Sleep
Find Rhapsody no longer crashes [so far] if I turn off DirectSound under preferences under tools
Watch Olympics and Listen to Music
See family doctor - regular diabetes check - fasting 13 hours - All normal except - BUN 24 - Glucose 113
Note A1C 6.4 - PSA 0.95
Stop at Barnes and Noble on way home - Look at Critique of Pure Reason [my copy is starting to fall apart] but
it was a different translator and I didn't want to switch translations in the middle.
Relax - Music
Talk with a friend on phone
Decide to take day off from reading, scanning, etc
Watch Olympics
Friday, August 22, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 106
Try to watch Olympics - Have Headache
9:00am-1:00pm Sleep
Feel Much better
Walk 1 mile
Read
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Ol;ympics
Obnama chooses Biden
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
Music
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Olympics
Obama chooses Biden
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 114
My laptop messed up
Copy my user directory
System Recovory
Start Reinstalling - most of next 2 days
Sunday, August 24, 2008
3:45am-9:45am sleep
9:45am - Fast 7 hours - Weight 199 - Glucose 125
Re-installing
Attend NAMI
Re-installing
Olympics closing ceremonies
Read
Virus Scans on my and mom's laptops - both have 1 tracking cookie - fixed
Monday, August 25, 2008
5:00am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199 - Glucose 120
Misc
Work copying my source code from the external drive to where I will use it
3:00pm When I go upstairs - seems very bad odor in kitchen
Go for 1 mile walk - all my senses seem far more alert than usual - especially smell
At times times today have had very bad pain in especially right hand when trying to grip something
Everything seems changed
Also occasional twinges of pain in feet
Copy Documents
Summary of restore process - last 3 days
Data for applications also restored where appropriate
8/23/2008
- REDO my LAPTOP
Olympics
Obama
chooses Biden
3:00am-7:00am
Sleep
Music
Computer
all messed up - Had tried to cancel Windows Explorer Delete of about 30
directories of about 200 files each [MapleSode temp backups]
It was
taking too long - but canceling it messed everything up.
copy
Dennis to f:\dennis_20080823
run
system recovery from dvds
setup
internet
try to
instrall c++.net -- too old
install
hp printer sw except iris 10.0
install
iris 11.0
install
norton nis
norton
update
windows
update
WALK
walgreens
install
DietPower
install
star message diary
install
quicken
install
firefox & foxmarks
install
Rhapsody
install
WinZip
install
MS Office
install
Book Collector
8/24/2008
- re Installing
emacs
to do
list
html
editor
ls
grep
dennisdarland/...
[watched
Olympics - gold medal men's basketball- during above]
3:45am-9;45am
Sleep
restored
docs\journal & noteworthy dirs
install
Filezilla
install
sun java jre jdk netbeans
install
cygwin - start to configure
attend
NAMI
think I
may have fixed problem w mom's laptop
get emacs
configured
install
RubyGems
Install
highline gem
wwwstats
works!!!!
copy over
MapleSode - works !!!
Olymics
closing ceremonies
Read
install
quicken med mgr but version too old for data file and cannot dl new version
8/25/2008
- About Everything Working again
update
cc's in quicken
music
2:50am
starting (including f:) full virus scan
4:57 scan
finishes - 1 tracking cookie fixed
5:00am-9:30am
Sleep
Misc
Work
copying my source code from the external drive to where I will use it
3:00pm
When I go upstairs - seems very bad odor< in kitchen
Go for 1
mile walk - all my senses seem far more alert than usual - especially smell
At times
times today have had very bad pain in especially right hand when trying to grip
something
Everything
seems changed
Also
occasional twinges of pain in feet
Copy
Documents
Purchase
and Install New Quicken Med Mgr (2.2) - works on old data
Install
Norton 2008 Update (already paid for)
MapleSode
working (as well as it did - 1 path change)
Watching
Democratic Convention all the time(MSNBC)
Watch
Speeches
Ted
Kennedy looks very good
Michelle
Obama's Brother looks good
Michelle
- Amazing!!!
8/26/2008
- File System Check
Run file
system scan - OK
Run Virus
Scan OK
Music
Sense of smell back to normal - was it a olfactory hallucination?
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
3:00am-8:30am Sleep
8:30am Weight 198
TV - Democratic Convention
Housekeeping
Music
see psychologist
Walk 1 mile
Rest - doze off
install NoteWorthy Composer
update Rhapsody to latest version - disable RealSound
read
Democratic Convention
read
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Music
Process RSN 41-58 - index etc
Update Adobe Reader to 8.1.2
4:00am-7:15am Sleep
7:15am - Fast 4 hours - Weight 198 - Glucose 109
REDO RSN43
Re-index
music and watch democratic convention
see case worker
walk 1 mile
misc
music and read
Watch Democratic Convention
Thursday, August 28, 2008
3:00am-10:30am Sleep
Fast 8 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 123
Music - Misc
12:30pm Walk 1 mile
Misc
4:00pm Feel exhausted - very sleepy
4:00pm-6:15pm Sleep
6:15pm Feel much better
Democratic Convention
Music and Reading
Friday, August 29, 2008
Study Chinese
Study Java
Work on MapleSode.rb(testing)
4:00am Go to bed - try to sleep
5:30am Give up Sleeping
Weight 199
Misc
7:00am Breakfast at the Lodge
9:00am-8:00pm Sleep
eat
8:30pm-11:00pm Sleep
Read
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Follow directions for Isabelle Install
Already have make & Perl
Add to cygwin:
xemacs [with mule-sumo and sumo]
xpdf
x11 [need to configure]
add java to cygwin path
CANNOT get X11 working [doesn't find fixed font] but not sure its required for Isabelle, etc
Install Idsabelle 2008
Install ProofGeneral
Install polyml
Install HOL
7:15am IT WORKS - Now I just need to learn how to use it!!!
scan RSN 60 - done 8:30am
Try to get X11 working - cannot find "fixed" font
find X11 is required for Isabelle (actually for xemacs) thought don't seem to need to start x11 itself.
Discover Isibelle only works correctly about 1/4 of the time
1:00pm Walk 1 mile
2:00pm-6:00pm Sleep
news
6:30pm-8:00pm Sleep
Weight 199.5
music and listen nebr football
read
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Misc tasks
3:00am-5:00am try to sleep
Scan RSN61 - done 7:00am
8:00am-9:00am Try gto sleep
9:00am Feel hypoglycemic - Test Glucose [non-fasting] 87
Eat some pears
Walk Walgreens and buy optical mouse - was starting to have trouble left buttons on laptop
install mouse
I love optical mouse!!!
Go to Barnes and Noble on way to NAMI
Buy The Middle Way by Lou Marinoff, Ph.D.
Buy A Companion to Ethics ed. Peter Singer
Attend NAMI
5:00pm?-9:00pm Sleep
9:00pm - Fast 4 hrs - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 187< br />
Acne on nose
Keep trying to use touchpad instead of mouse[disabled]
Read
Monday, September 1, 2008
Misc
Work on MapleSode
3:00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am - Fast 4 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 127
read
Walk 1 mile
Scan RSN 62
Read
Finish 100 Questions and Answers about Bipolar (Manic-Depressive) Disorder
Scan RSN 63
5:00pm-8:00pm Sleep
Scan RSN 64
Read
News, Music
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Read
3:00am-5:00am Try to Sleep - just doze off a short time - give up
5:30am-7:00am Sleep
Weight 199.5
Read
Finish Bergson, Creative Evolution
Seems Reading is coming easier the last couple of days
Scan RSN 65, 66
Walk 1 mile
Read
Had been reading better than usual - then suddenly had headache after bread and margarine and decaf ice tea.
3:00pm-8:30pm Sleep
Watch Republican Convention
read
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Misc Tasks
2:00am-4:30am Sleep
Weight 200.5
Scan RSN 67, 68
Epsom Bath
Read
Apt w nurse on my health
5:00pm-7:30pm Sleep
Republican Convention
Read - Finish Critique of Pure Reason
Thursday, August 4, 2008
Music
2:30am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 116
Music
Watch Victim of the Brain [AI Video]
Cannot walk - rain [2nd day in a row] z
Email
Music and US Open tennis
3:00pm-8:00pm Sleep
Republican Convention
Music
Friday, August 5, 2008
12:00am-4:30am Sleep
4:30am Weight 201.5
Doze some
2 caffeinated coffee because trouble waking
Read
Walk 1 mile
Read
Do plotting in Maple for Calculus book
Feel Sick - legs tingling and headache
Talk with friends on phone
Take 2 ibuprofen and 1 lorazepam with noon meds
12:00pm-1:30pm Sleep
Feel better - but not good
Womens semis at us open tennis
3:00pm-7:30pm Sleep
Sort of hear whistle in ears after waking - for a short time
Feel better s
Install Isabelle, etc on Linux - seems to work
Saturday, August 6, 2008
12:00am-4:30am Sleep
4:30am Fast 5 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 123
Read
Misc tasks
Walk 1 mile
Talk with friend on phone
Watch US open tennis - mens semis
Listen Nebr football - web [they win]
Process RSN 59-68 [build index etc]
Music and read
Sunday, August 7, 2008
11:45pm-5:45am Sleep
5:45am Fast 6 hours - Weight 198.5 - Glucose 134
Music
Yoga - [decided to do yoga twice a day from now on]
Attend UU church
Change color cartridge - printer
Shut down and rebooted everything
Scan RSN 69, 70 watching tennis and football
Walk 1 mile
Legs felt more 'normal' walking - they were bothering me worse than usual yesterday
Notice the cold tea I thought was 'decaffeinated' isn't - mom made a mistake shopping [it had a green lid]
Monday, September 8, 2008
PM Yoga
1:30am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am - Fast 7 hours - Weight 198 - Glucose 130
Read
AM Yoga
Start to walk - raining
Groceries - decaf unsweetened cold tea and misc
10:30am Getting a [lack of] caffeine headache
Scan RSN 71, 72
Still Raining
1:30pm Headache better
2:30pm Headache worse after eating bread, margarine and milk
4:00pm had dozed off - wake feeling much better
5:00pm-8:30pm Sleep [first, when I wake, think it is morning]
8:30-10:00 NFL - raiders
Sign up for QB1
s
Tuesday, September 8, 2008
10:00pm-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 8 hrs - Weight 199.5
Read
Walk 1 mile
AM Yoga
Scan RSN 73, 74 while listening to music
Rest - sleep for a while
PM Yoga
Feel depressed this evening - a little tired - but not much headache
Seems there is no reason to go on
Rest
Music and Cubs
Notice vision clearer than usual - like I have sometimes noted before
Talk with friend on phone
Music and Cubs
10:30pm-2:30pm Sleep
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
2:30am-5:00am Music etc
5:00am-8:00am Sleep
Weight 201
Misc tasks
Music and Read
Walk 1 mile
Music and Read
Scan RSN 75, 76 while listening to music
Walk 1 mile [again]
Misc
Feel much better tonight - almost a different person - a feeling of calm
Study Chinese
Study Java[ACM]
Java is more different than c and c++ than I realized
Actually notice taste of corn and green beans [had forgot what should taste like]
10:30pm-2:30am Sleep
Weight 201.5
Thursday, September 11, 2008
3:00am-9:00am Sleep
Misc
Study Java[acm]
Start to go for walk but starting to rain
Scan RSN 77
Walk 1 mile - rain over
Scan RSN 78
Try to read - but gives me headache - give up
6:30pm Lay down 1 hour but cannot sleep
Music
Friday, September 12, 2008
12:00am-5:00am Sleep
Rest - Music
Scan RSN 79, 80
Read
Attend NAMI group
Study Java [acm]
News [Ike] and music
Read
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Install Vista SP1
Watch news - Ike
12:00am-5:00am Sleep
5:00am - Fast 5 hrs - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 133
5:00am-9:00am Mostly doze while watching news [Ike]
Misc
Read
2:00pm-5:00pm Sleep
Read
Listen to Nebraska Football
Read
Sunday, September 14, 2008
11:30pm-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Fast 7 hours - Weight 199 - Glucose 118
Read
Raiders Win
Scan RSN 81-83 While watching NFL
Walk 1 mile
Scan RSN 84-86 [That's ALL] While watching NFL
Misc
Monday, September 15, 2008
2:00am-6:00am Sleep
6:0am Weight 199.5
6:15-9:15 Sleep
Complete putting ALL RSNs on Web [index etc]
Walk 1 mile
Watch news
Talk on phone with friends
Watch end of NFL football game
Relax
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
1:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Weight 198.5
News and Music
9:00am-11:00am [legs hurting] Rest - Sleep a little
See psychologist
Walk 1 mile
Read
Adjust reading plans:
Drop Bergson - Matter and Memory[I've read enough Bergson for right now]
Stop in Symon - Mechanics[Math becoming too difficult for now - will proceed with other math and physics for now]
Add Feynman Lectures
Add Barnes - Foundations of Electricity and Magnetism
Last 2 days have had feeling of having had shot in left hip - becoming more persistent today [feels like cortisone? -
had cortisone shots in junior high for hay fever - ragweed]
Work on MapleSode [erf and Si]
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
1:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 198.5 - Glucose 133
Work on MapleSode.rb - multiple equations
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode.rb - multiple equations
Scan BRSQ 87
Read
Music
Having twinges of pain under left ribs. Also feeling of having shot in left buttocks becoming stronger.
Vision becoming more intense[strength of colors]
1:00am-5:30am Sleep
5:30am Fast 4 hours - Weight 199 - Glucose 138
5:45am-10:45am Sleep in my recliner
Walk 1 mile - eat Chinese
Update index.html at sode.sourceforge.net
Work on MapleSode.rb trying to get erf and Si working and simplify logic for multiple eq's[priority]
Help serve community meal at salvation army
Work on MapleSode - erf - Si - working - logic for multiple equations greatly simplified
Read
Friday, September 19, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 199
Work on MapleSode
Misc
Scan BRSQ #88 while watching football
A night of dancing till 1:00am
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Music
4:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 196.5
Noticing more details than usual - especially TV
Feel elated [from dancing]
9:30am-1:00pm Sleep
Work on MazpleSode
Walk 1 mile
Scan BRSQ 89
Rest
Read
Sunday, September 21, 2008
2:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Weight 196.5
Relax
Watch NFL
Walk 1 mile
Scan BRSQ 90 while watching NFL
Misc
Read
Monday, September 22, 2008
11:00pm-1:30am Sleep
1:30am-2:30am Rest
2:30am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Weight 199
Help mom on her computer - feel very irritated that she insists on going so slowly. Continue feeling of irritation
after finished helping her.
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode
Scan BRSQ # 91
Update my Psychology.html [a possible cause of schizophrenia???]
Walk 1 mile again
Misc
8:30pm-10:00pm Sleep
Read
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
1:30am-8:3e0am Sleep
9:30am Fast 8 hours - Weight 198 - Glucose 106
Scan BRSQ 92
Read
Having several soft BMs, but not diarrhea
Work on MapleSode
Walk 1 mile
Work on MapleSode - testing
Read
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 5 hrs - Weight 198.5 - Glucose 201
7:30am-8:30am Watch MSNBC - eat 2 slices 2% cheese and 1/2 cup decalf coffee - oatmeal and milk
8:30am-2:00pm Sleep
2:00pm Fast 11 hrs [except as noted above] - Weight 198 - Glucose 123
Watch news
Walk walgreens - buy new wireless phone for basement
Setup phone
Watch news
Scan BRSQ 93
Watch news
Read
Relax
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Michael Moore Movie
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 199
Figure out how to put numbers into new phone
Walk 1 mile
Read
Enter frequent numbers into new phone
3:30pm-5:00pm exhausted - sleep
Read
Scan BRSQ 94
Read
Friday, September 26, 2008
Watch News and scan BRSQ 95, 96
3:00am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Weight 199
Scan BRSQ 97
Rest - doze some
Walk 1 mile
Cannot get Chinese Lessons (disk) to work - drive seems OK - drop from ToDoList
Talk with friend
Watch presidential debate
Go out dancing [just drink water]
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Relax
4:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am - Fast 7 hours - Weight 198.5 - Glucose 124
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Organize room
Scan BR SQ 98
Read
Listen to Nebraska Football
Sunday, September 28, 2008
2:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Weight 199.5
News
NFL
Attend NA MI group
Scan BR SQ 99
Read
Monday, September 29, 2008
2:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 199
Scan BR SQ 100
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Read - I am able to understand Foundations of Electricity and Magnetism - Barnes better than when studying
it as an undergraduate - I think as a result of greater philosophical maturity - not wanting to fit it into pre-conceived
ideas.
Do process to get BRSQ 87-100 indexed and on web
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am - Fast 10 hours[except 2 slices 2% cheese and 2 cups skim milk] - Weight 198 - Glucose 111
Read
Walk 1 mile
Legs feeling better - feel possibly less numb
Scan BRSQ 102
Read and watch Chicago Cubs
Thursday, October 2, 2008
3:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 9 hours - Weight 197 - Glucose 113
Relax - Music
Walk 1 mile
Scan RSN 102-106
While scanning feel hypoglycemic - test Glucose - 88 - have a snack
Read
Watch VP debate
Read
Friday, October 3, 2008
4:30am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am fast 10 hours - Weight 196 - Glucose 120
Read
2:00pm-3:30pm Sleep
1 cup caffeinated coffee
Read
Run errands
Walk 1.5 Miles
Scan BRSQ 110
Read
Tired - don't go dancing tonight.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
3:00am07:30am Sleep
7:30am - Weight 197.5
Have noticed greater ability to read last few days - see
my reading.
I seem to understand the math and physics better than I did as a freshman in college. I think I was in very poor
condition mentally in college - due to anxiety - or the cream [cortisone] for my skin - an acquaintance suggested my
symptoms - skin getting better when I put the cream on and then getting worse - suggests I had an infection.
I am much better able to see the significance of what is covered in the texts now than I was able to then.
I am trying to read a chapter a day in both Feynman and Strang - and a little [a page or few pages] in several other books.
I am still hearing "voices" at times however.
Is any of the improvement due to stopping aspartame? - hard to say - but I am not going back!!!
Finish Church - So Help Me God
Start Boolos & Jeffery - Computability and Logic
Walk 1 mile
Scan BRSQ 111
Relax
Read
Watch Nebraska vs Missouri Football
Read
Feel physically uncomfortable [body aches] after eating something containing sugar-alcohols.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
2:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 208.5
After I was up a while, I started feeling lousy. I also noticed a small red circle on my right upper arm, when taking
a bath. I lay down and had to use 3 blankets but still felt cold. After a couple hours [ it was longer than it seemed so
I may have slept a little], I got up and watched a little football [Bears]. Skipping QCUU and NAMI today.
I think this is probable a flu, and has nothing to do with sugar-alcohols.
3:30pm feeling better after laying down again. Decide to skip daily walk and daily brs scan. Just taking noon meds.
Read
7:30 talk w a friend
TV and relax
8:44 1 cup caffeinated coffee
TV and relax
Monday, October 6, 2008
12:00am-4:00am Sleep
4:00am - fast 4 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 111
Mostly doze till 8:00am
Misc
Study ACM Java
Walk 1 mile
Read
Dental checkup - 1 broken filling - which I already knew
Scan BRSQ 112
Read
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
2:00am-8:00am Sleep
8;00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 197.5 - Glucose 126
Doze
Watch News and Listen Music
See my Psychologist
Rest
Scan BRSQ 113
Rainy all day - skip walking
Watch Presidential Debate
Read
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
3:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am - Fast 6 hours - Weight 197.5 - Glucose 110
Read
Walk 1 mile
Scan BRSQ 114
Relax
6:00pm-9:00pm Attend NAMI Candlelight Celebration
11:00pm Watch Michelle Obama on Larry King
No reading today
Thursday, October 9, 2008 - My Birthday
5:00am-10:30am Sleep
10:30am - Fast 5 hrs - Weight 198 - Glucose 135
Misc
Work on e-mail
2:30pm-6:15pm Sleep
Scan BRSQ 115
Read
Friday, October 10, 2008
4:00am-7:00am Sleep - Nightmare
7:00am Fast 3 hrs - Weight 197
Misc
7:30am-9:00am Nap
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Scan BRSQ 116
Misc
Exhausted
3:00pm-6:30pm Sleep
Misc
Read
Spend evening dancing
Saturday, October 11, 2008
5:00am-8:30am Sleep
8:30am Fast 3.5 hours - Weight 197 - Glucose 108
Misc
Scan BRSQ 117
Walk 1 mile
Clean room
Read
Watch Nebraska Football - lose in overtimes
Scan BRSQs 118, 119 ALL DONE SCANNING
Rest
Read
Sunday, October 12, 2008
12:30am-4:30am Sleep
Doze til 5:0am
5:30am-10:30am Mostly Sleep
Feel much batter after extra sleep!!!
10:30am-11:30am Sleep yet more
3:30pm-7:30pm sleep
Read
Monday. October 13, 2008
3;00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Weight 199.5
Work on e-mail
Watch Michael Moore's Slacker Uprising - All the way through this time.
Walk 1 mile
Read
3:30pm-7:00pm Sleep
Read
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
4:00am-7:30am Sleep
Work on MapleSode01.tar.gz release
Discover changes for ftp use for my web host
Work on BRSQs
See dentist - two fillings fixed - no Novocaine - I remember what happened last time it was used on me!!!
Work on BRSQs
Walk 1 mile
5:00pm-9:30pm Sleep
Read
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
3:00am-5:30am Sleep
5:30am Weight 198.5
Going to try to focus [even more] on Feynman Lectures on Physics and CALCULUS [Strang]
Also read more in recent Scientific Americans
Read
2:00pm-7:00pm Sleep
Did not walk today due to rain
Watched presidential debate
Read
Thursday, October 16, 2008
3:00am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am - Weight 199
Read
Walk 1 mile
Read [all of Feynman - The Meaning of it all - in one day]
Read more
Walk 1 mile - again
Read
11:00pm fell asleep
Friday, October 17, 2008
11:00pm-3:00am Sleep
3:00am Woke and realized I had not taken 12:00am meds yet - take meds
Misc
Work on getting all remaining BRSQ's and RSN's on BRS area of my web site
Headache and feel miserable
1:00pm-5:00pm Sleep
5:00pm Weight 200
8:00pm-12:00am Sleep
Saturday, October 18, 2008
12:00am Weight 200
Read [on and off] and listen to music all night
8:00am-9:30am Sleep
Help mom running errands
Watch Nebraska beat Iowa State 35-7
Walk 1 mile
Misc - mostly work on BRSQs
5:30pm-10:00pm - Sleep
Read
Sunday, October 19, 2008
3:00am-6:00am Sleep
6:00am - Weight 200
Work on BRSQs
Attend QCUU Church
Work on BRSQs - done
Raiders win in OT - longest FG in raider history
6:30pm-9:30pm Sleep
Read and relax
Monday, October 20, 2008
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am - Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 117
Misc
See Psychiatrist - regular appointment
Relax and misc - raining so cannot walk
Rain stopped - Walk 1 mile
6:30pm-10:00pm Sleep
Read
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
3:30am-8:00am Sleep
Relax
Take prior labs [from family dr] to psychiatrist's office - I think insurance doesn't cover if done too often
Run errands for mom
Relax - watch tennis - listen to music
Walk 1 mile
Misc
Read
5:30pm-11:00pm Sleep
Wednesday, October 22. 2008
Relax
3:30am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am -Fast 5 hours - Weight 200.5
Misc
Walk 1 Mile
Figure on new way to do anonymous ftp on HostMonster
2:30pm-6:00pm Sleep
Read and watch World Series
Thursday, October 23, 2008
11:00pm-2:00am Sleep [before midnight meds]
2:30am Weight 200 - take meds
5:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Weight 197.5
Read
Cannot walk today - raining
QCUU - circle group
TV and Music
Friday, October 24, 2008
2:30am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 198
Read and misc
Cannot walk - rain
3:00pm-5:00pm Sleep
Read
10:00pm-2:00am Sleep
Saturday, October 25, 2008
2:30am Weight 199.5
Relax
5:00am-9:00am Sleep
Clean room
Watch Nebraska Football
Walk 1 mile
Relax
Attend NAMI dance - dance a lot
Go to favorite dance spot - dance a little
Sleep on basement floor [air mattress] because of company
Sunday, October 26, 2008
4:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00 Weight 197.5
Read and watch tv (football)
Walk 1 mile
Dinner with family
Read
Find I can relax legs while reading [reducing tension in legs - also improves reading ability]
Monday, October 27, 2008
11:00pm-5:00am Sleep
7:00am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - glucose 124
Doze till 8:00am
Relax
Read
11;00am Blood work - Metro Lab
Walk 1 mile
Mostly read
6:30pm Pain on left side of neck and in left hand
Watch world series
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Relax
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am - Weight 198
Mostly doze till 11:00am
Misc
Feeling better than usual - slept better last night
Walk 1 mile
See my psychologist
Relax and misc
Watch Celtics
Grocery shopping
Read
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
3:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 132
Relax - watch news - then Stones DVD
Walk 1 mile
Music
Tired - headache - cannot read
5:00pm-6:45pm Sleep
Watch Obama Info-mercial
Watch World Series
Read
Thursday, October 30, 2008
2:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am Fast 8 hours - weight 199.5 - glucose 123
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Work on e-mail
Tired - doze
CPBR #21 arrives
Attend QCUU Conn Circle
Watch NBA - too tired to read - fall asleep about 11:00pm
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wake about 1:00am
Misc - music
3:30am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 6 hours - weight 200
Grocery shopping
Walk 1 mile
Read
New BRSQ arrives #136-139 November 2007 - August 2008
Talk w a friend
Try writing on philosophy [nature of analysis]
Read
Talk to a friend about nature of analysis, etc
Read
Saturday, November 1, 2008
11:00pm-9:00am Sleep [mostly]
9:00am Weight 200
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Tired
2:00pm-4:00pm Sleep
Relax
6:30pm-7:00pm Tired - cannot sleep
Nebraska gets clobbered - football
Read
Sunday, November 2, 2008
1:00am Realized tonight that I have stopped hearing voices.
1:30am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 200.5 - Glucose 113
Set clocks
Attend QCUU Church
Walk 1 mile
Read
Monday, October 3, 2008
3:00am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Weight 197.5
Get ready for appointment with heart doctor[regular annual apt]
See Heart Doctor - EKG normal - Blood pressure high - will start taking Lotrel twice a day instead of once a day
Do a stress test in a year
Relax
See Case worker
Walk 1 mile
Get groceries
Tired
6;00pm-7:00pm Sleep
Monday Night Football and read
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
11:00pm-6:00am Sleep
6:00am Weight 198
Walk 1 mile and vote - for Obama
Watch News
Hearing "voices" a little after voting. Such social situations make me anxious. Did yoga and calmed down
Watch news, listen music and watch 1 episode of the Lost World
Walk 1 mile
Watch News till 3:00a Obamawins!!!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
Watch News
Walk 1 mile
Watch news
Read
Music
Thursday, November 6, 2008
10:30pm-6:30am
6:30 Weight 200.5
Doze
Work on fixing ruby on rails complex number calculator [which had been broken since about August] get it fixed
Walk 1 mile
Read
Attend QCUU Conn Circle
Read
Friday, November 7, 2008
3:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 199
Doze till 9:30am
Doze till 12:00pm
Get both real and complex ruby on rails calculators working - now password protected
Walk 1 mile - get haircut
Read
Go out to dance - music is not there yet and weather is not great so go home early
NBA
Saturday, November 8, 2008
12:30am-6:340am Sleep
6:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 120
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Replaced battery in my laptop
Started to listen to Nebraska Game - but internet connection stops working
4:00pm-6:45pm Sleep
Read
Sunday, November 9, 2008
12:00am Try to sleep - cannot
3:00am-9:30am Sleep
9:3e0am Fast 6 hours - Weight 200 - Glucose 111
Attend QCUU church and coffee hour
Eat out at Mexican restaurant at mall
Visit Barnes and Noble but don't buy anything
Attend NAMI Connections meeting
Skip walk today as I did quite a bit anyway and am tired and want to get to reading
Read
5:00pm-7:00pm Very Tired - Sleep
Talk philosophy with a friend
Read
Monday, November 10, 2008
5:00am-9:00am Sleep
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Neck aching - take 2 ibuprofen
2:00pm-4:00pm Tired - Sleep
Read
Watch end of Monday night football
Read
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
1:00am-5:30am Sleep
5:30am Weight 199
Read
10:00am Blood work after fasting 12 hours
Read
Don't walk because of rain
6:00pm-7;00pm Tired - Rest
Read
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
2:30am-6:00am Sleep
6:00am Weight 199.5
Read
I seem to be actually enjoying reading again - especially Feynman
Walk 1c mile
Misc
Read
Thursday, November 13, 2008
2:00am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Fast 8 hours - Weight 199 - Glucose 108
Misc
Read
Walk 1 mile
Read
Attend QCUU Group
Read
Friday, November 14, 2008
3:00am-11:00am Sleep
11:00am Weight 198
11:00am-1:00pm Sleep
Misc
Walk 1 mile - getting hypoglycemic - have candy bar
Misc
Read
Note; Occasionally noticing voices just a little. Trying to get "intuitive" grasp of vector calculus and succeeding better
than I ever had before - I am taking time to think carefully about the proofs and examples. It also helps that much of the
material is covered both in calculus and physics.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
2:00am-5:00am Sleep
5:00am Weight 199.5
5:00am-7:45am Sleep
Misc
Read
Walk 1 mile
Read while listening to Nebraska Football, etc.
Read
Sunday, November 16, 2008
2:00am-8:30am Sleep
8:30am Weight 199
Work on e-mail
Walk 1 mile
Read
Watch 60 minutes - Obama interview
Read
Monday, November 17, 2008
3:30am-7:00am Sleep
7:00am Weight 198.5
Read
Walk 1 mile
Misc
Read
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
1:30am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Weight 198.5
Read
Walk 1 mile
See Family Doctor for 3 month diabetes check - good except triglycerides were a little high
Need to cut back on Graham crackers
While waiting I had a lot of trouble with "voices" and paranoid thoughts.
Read
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
2:30am-7:30am Sleep
7:30am Weight 197.5
Read
See psychologist
Read
Finish CALCULUS by Strang
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Trouble going to sleep
4:00am-10:00am Sleep
10:00am Weight 199
Misc
Linear Algebra Video
Walk 1 mile
Read
Help serve QCUU Community meal
Attend QCUU Connection Circle
Read
Friday, November 21, 2008
5:00am-12:00pm Sleep
12:00pm Weight 198.5
Walk 1 mile
Watch linear algebra
Read
Saturday, November 22, 2008
2:30am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Weight 200
Misc
Try to read but feel to tired
5:00pm-7:00pm Sleep
Read Kant and listen to Augustana (#2) vs Washington U(#1) Basketball - Augie loses in overtime
Feeling much better than usual
Watch Linear Algebra
Sunday, November 23, 2008
4:00am-8:00am Sleep
8:00am Weight 200
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Attend NAMI group
Watch NFL - too tired to read
6:00pm-8:00pm Sleep
Read
Monday, November 24, 2008
Trouble going to sleep
5:00am-6:30am Sleep
Cannot stay asleep
7:00am-10:30am Sleep
10:30am Weight 199
Read
Housekeeping on Mom's computer
Walk 1 mile
3:00pm-8:30pm Sleep
Watch MNF [NFL] and read
Aches [especially lower left back] and pains. No "voices" today
Read
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Watch Linear Algebra Video
Sleep a little in the morning - lost track
In early morning bad pain in lower left back
Also my neck has been bothering me while walking the last few days
During 1 mile walk today, I noticed my lower back and neck were no longer bothering me - I have just a little aching in middle of my
back.
2:30pm-6:30pm Sleep
My lower back is bothering me just a little again
Read
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Watch Linear Algebra Video
4:00am-6:00am Sleep
Housekeeping on mom's computer
Back OK
Read
Walk 1 mile
Read
3;00pm-9:30pm Sleep
Wake to Terrorism in India
9:30pm Weight 200.5
Watching Terrorism in India
About 10:00pm Discover trouble with "rundll32" [virus or something - Norton has trouble with it when scanning
cookies].
Reformat and set back to factory condition.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Install & update Norton
Do Windows Update
Check mom's computer - same problem - turn it off and leave her note not to use it
Try to sleep - cannot
Finally sleep a little
Install cygwin
Restore data - takes all day - sleep in recliner next to computer most of the time
Friday, November 28, 2008
Start customizing and installing software.
Good progress on my computer
Watch Nebraska beat Colorado [football]
Walk 1 mile
6:00pm-10:30pm Sleep [on basement floor due to company]
Saturday, November 29, 2008
1:30am My laptop setup almost completed
2:00am-6:30am Sleep [on basement floor due to company]
Work most of day on mom's computer
I had configured cygwin handling of line ending to recommended method [binary]
This caused trouble with scripts which I have resolved
Read
Sleep a little
Read
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Sunday, November 30, 2008
5:00am Weight 200
Mostly work on computers setup all day [having to restart on both]
My troubles were caused by updates starting automatically - when redoing I have tried to configure them so I can approve them.
Walk 1 mile
Eat with family for Thanksgiving
10:00pm-6:00am Sleep
Monday, December 1, 2008
Work on my computer most of day.
Walk 1 mile
Help someone moving - furniture
Read
7:00pm-8:30pm Sleep
Read
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
2:00am-6:30am Sleep
Misc
I am noticing that TV seems much clearer [the last few days] than it usually seems.
Spend most of day setting up Mom's Computer
Also walk 1 mile
6:30pm Suddenly verysleepy
6:30pm-12:30am Sleep
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
12:30am Fast 6 hours - Weight 199.5 - Glucose 119
1:30am-6:30am Sleep
Spend most of day setting up mom's and my computers
Also walk [in snow] 1 mile
6:30pm Suddenly verysleepy
6:30pm-9:00pm Sleep
Read
Thursday, December 4, 2008
2:30am-7;00am Sleep
7:00am Weight 199
Work on computers setup most of day
Walk 1 mile
Attend QCUU Connection Circle
10:00pm-11:00pm Sleep
Read
Friday, December 5, 2008
4:30am-9:00am Sleep
9:00am Weight 196
Read
2:30pm-3:30pm Sleep
Exercise Bike 1.1 miles
Work on Mom's computer setup
Watch Celtics
Think about going out dancing - but feel too tired
9:30pm-1:30am Sleep
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Misc
3:30am-9:30am Sleep
9:30am Weight 200
Finish setting up mom's computer
Exercise Bike 1.1 miles
Watch Football
Read
Sunday, December 7, 2008
1:00am-8:30am Sleep
Usher at QCUU Service - I found it very stressful and was hearing voices.
I think I should avoid this in the future.
I try to relax but I get a bad headache - take aspirin
I get groceries - as the weather may get worse
My headache disappeared!
I do reading
I am finding myself very successful understanding Feynman - and am trying to be thorough in making sure I do so.
With Boolos and Jeffrey, I am having much more trouble - at this point I am mainly trying to understand WHAT they are proving but
not the details of how.
I have trouble understanding Barnes, as compared to Feynman, and am not trying as hard on it as Feynman seems to be more current
anyway [hanging on as it does to D and H.
Lewis I am understanding, but he writes in a way I must go through slowly, and I have so much to think about in his ideas that I
cannot go very fast. - I think he has many good points, but I have to integrate them into my own thoughts.
Pauling writes well, most of the material so far is familiar, but I am very rusty with it. I am going slowly as I am concentrating
mainly on Feynman now.
Monday, December 8, 2008
1:30am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Weight 200
Doze till 8:30am
Misc
Walk 1 mile
Houskeeping on computers
Headache and sore muscles.
4:30pm-6:00pm Sleep
Help someone moving furniture
Read
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
2;00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Weight 199
Read
It is snowing - but not too bad
See my psychologist
Exercise Bike 1.1 Miles
Relax - some headache - on and off - and sore muscles
Read
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
2;00am-6:39am Sleep
6:30am Weight 200
7:00am-10:00am Sleep
Misc
Watch Linear Algebra
Read
Exercise Bike 1.1 miles
Read
Thursday, December 11, 2008
1:00am-6:30am Sleep
6:30am Weight 199
7:00am-9:00am Sleep
Misc
Read
Walk 1 mile
Misc
End of journal
I cannot see where this public journal is accomplishing much
I seem to be, possibly, improving a little, but why???
Email:
dennis.darland@yahoo.com